WELL BUBBY MOM JUST WANTS TO SAY ,,, HAPPY THANKSGIVING . YOU WILL BE DEARLY MISSED AT THE TABLE EVERY YEAR. I SIT AND THINK,, WONDER WHO YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN WITH AND HOW MANY BEAUTIFUL MORE GRANDBABYS MOM WOULD HAVE TO LOVE IF YOU WERE ONLY HERE, MY HEART FEELS LIKE IT HAS BRICKS IN IT TONIGHT AND OF COURSE YOU KNOW HOW EASY MOM'S TEARS ARE TO FLOW . NEVER FORGET,, I WILL HAVE YOU CLOSE AS LONG AS MY HEART BEATS AND I GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN.
MISSING YOU EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY !!!!! LOVING YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!!
MOM
STAR/ MOM YOU ARE MY STAR I LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYNIGHT IN THE SKY.
I KNOW IT WAS'NT MEANT TO BE BUT I SURE WISH YOU WERE HERE, I WAKE EVERY MORNING GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS OF MAKING EVERYONE THINK I AM FINE. WELL I AM FAR FROM THERE,YOUR SISTER AND I HAVE OUR WORDS BUT GOD KNOWS I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART, I CAN'T HELP IT BUT THERE ARE DAYS THAT I AM SO ANGRY AND HURT. I JUST TRY TO STAY TO MYSELF ON DAYS LIKE THAT BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO LASCH OUT FOR NO REASON AT THE PEOPLE I LOVE SO MUCH. MY PAIN IS SO STRONG THAT IT IS EVEN HARD FOR ME TO KEEP AND CARRY, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ANYMORE OR EVEN TRY TO MAKE MY HEART FIND PEACE. IT HAS BEEN SO LONG FOR ME AND MY BODY GROWS TIRED SO OFTEN TO KEEP GOING ON. SON, I DO SO WISH I COULD MAKE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ME. BUT I HAVE FOUND OUT THAT MOST JUST LOOK OVER ME AND THINK ,,, WELL SALLY WILL NEVER BE WHO SHE ONCE WAS AND THEY RUN FROM ME IN ORDER NOT TO HEAR ABOUT YOU. I AM SO GLAD I DO HAVE GOD ON THESE DAYS, WITHOUT HIM TO TALK TO I WOULD NEVER MAKE IT THROUGH THIS JOURNEY .IF MY TEARS COUNTED FOR ANYTHING AT ALL THEN I WOULD BE A VERY BLESSED MOTHER, BECAUSE THE RIVER I HAVE CREATED HAS BEEN SO PAINFUL. AS I WRITE THIS TO YOU WITH ALL MY HEART IT IS SO HARD TO EVEN SEE WHAT I AM TYPING ,,, WITH ALL THESE TEARS THAT FLOW. I MISS YOU SO BAD,, YOU ALWAYS KNEW HOW TO HELP ME IN TIMES OF TROUBLE, BUT WE BOTH KNOW YOU CAN'T BE HERE. I WISH MY LIFE FOR ME NEVER ENDED THIS WAY WITH HELL TO PAY, I WILL HOLD YOU AGAIN SOON I HOPE.
LOVE YOU TO THE HEAVENS SON. MOM
MOM NEEDS TO TALK, SON / MOM I HAVE OFTEN WONDERED IN MY MIND HOW WE LIVE ON FOR THOSE WHO NEED US AFTER OUR GREATEST LOSS A MOTHER CAN BEAR. AFTER HEARING THE SONG SHELLY SENT ME BUB SOMEHOW IT MAKES ME UNDERSTAND THAT MARY SUFFERED OUR LOSS ALSO. TO WATCH HER SUFFERING WITH JESUS WAS HORRIBLE, KNOWING HOW CRUEL OUR WORLD CAN ACTUALLY BE. I WALK THE STREETS AND SEE PEOPLE WHO HAVE ALOT LESS THAN I HAVE BUT THEY ARE THE RICH ONES IF THEY ONLY KNEW IT BECAUSE THEY CAN WAKE TO THEIR LOVED ONE EVERYDAY AND NOT SUFFER WITH THE HOLE THAT WAKING UP AND THEM NOT BEING THERE LEAVES. BUBBY, PLEASE DON'T THINK NO LESS OF MOM BECAUSE I DIDN'T TAKE MATTERS INTO MY OWN HANDS WHEN CHUCK TOOK YOUR LIFE. I THOUGHT WE HAD A GOOD ENOUGH LAW SYSTEM THAT WOULD SHOW HIM WHERE HE WENT WRONG BUT I GUESS I THOUGHT WRONG , DIDN'T I. FOR 8 YEARS NOW I HAVE HAAD SO MUCH IN MY LIFE TEAR ME DOWN , MY FAMILY I HAVE DISOWNED BECAUSE THEY THINK ONLY OF THEMSELVES. I HAVE VERY FEW FRIENDS AND THAT IS THE ONES I HAVE MET ON HERE SINCE I STARTED YOUR WEBSITE, THEY HAVE BEEN GREAT! I DON'T TALK TO KEITH ABOUT YOU BECAUSE HE NEVER KNEW JUST HOW SPECIAL YOU WERE AND OTHERS THAT NEVER KNEW YOU JUST LIVE AND LOOK AT ME LIKE I AM CRAZY. WELL I AM ,,,, I AM CRAZY ,,, YOU ARE MY CHILD AND IF ANYONE WANTS TO SAY CRUEL THINGS THEN I WANT NO PART OF IT FROM THEM, ONLY TO STAY AWAY FROM ME. I STILL CARRY ALOT OF MIXED EMOTIONS ABOUT WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE WHEN YOU LEFT AND I WILL CARRY THEM IN ME. GOD ONLY KNOWS AND ME. MY FIRST DREAM OF YOU WAS VERY CONFUSING AND SCARED FOR ME. YOU WERE IN YOUR CAMARO AND PULLED INTO AN OLD DIRT ROAD WHERE I LIVED ALONE, I RAN SO FAST OUT THAT DOOR TO SEE YOU WHEN YOU PUSHED ME BACK AND SAID, ' MOM, DON'T COME ANY CLOSER TO ME" YOU LEFT ME LOOKING STRAIGHT AHEAD AS IF YOU DIDN'T WANT ME TO SEE THE OTHER PART OF YOUR FACE. I CRIED AND SAID BUB " I LOVE YOU AND AM SO HAPPY YOU CAME, BUT THEN YOU LEFT ME WHEN I AWOKE. I WANTED SO BAD IN MY DREAM JUST TO TOUCH YOU AND GRAB A HUG BECAUSE I KNEW YOU WEREN'T GOING TO STAY LONG FOR SOME REASON. I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DREAM !!!!! I WOKE STARTLED AND BUST INTO TEARS, MY HEART WAS BROKEN AGAIN. THEN THE LAST DREAM I HAD OF YOU WAS SO GOOD,,, I THANK GOD FOR THAT ONE. SABRINA AND I WAS SHOPPING IN A STORE, YOU WALKED IN AS WHOLE AS YOU COULD BE , I WAS ASKING YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN TO LET MOM BUY YOU SOME NEW CLOTHES. YOUR REPLY THROUGH THE WHOLE DREAM WAS """ MOM,, I DON'T NEED ANYTHING""" . WE WERE BENT DOWN LOOKING AT SOME SHIRTS AND I KEPT INSISTING ON BUYING YOU A NEW ONE. BUT THROUGH MY WHOLE DREAM ,, YOU ALWAYS KEPT TELLING ME "" MOM , I AM FINE AND DON'T NEED THAT. I THINK ABOUT THIS AND THE ONLY EXPLANATION I CAN COME UP WITH IS THE LORD WAS TRYING TO TELL ME"" HE'S ALRIGHT". TEARS OF JOY CAME FROM THAT DREAM, TO KNOW YOU WERE OK AND DIDN'T NEED THINGS.
YOU ARE MY SMELL OF FRESH AIR I BREATH EVERYDAY, MY BUTTERFLY I SEE THAT HAS BEAUTY AND MY REASON FOR LIVING HERE TILL I GET TO FINALLY TAKE THAT LONG DESERVED REST I CRAVE SO BAD.
MY LOVE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU AND I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE TALK ABOUT YOU BADLY, LIKE WELL HE IS GONE SO I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU LIVE IN SUCH GRIEF. THE DAY WILL COME WHEN GOD WILL SHOW THEM WHAT GRIEF IS! AND I WON'T SAY A WORD, JUST WISH THEY DIDN'T HAVE TO SUFFER SUCH A LOSS.
THINKING OF YOU AND LOVING YOU FOREVER. MOM
Your birthday in heaven / MOM
A Birthday In Heaven ~
I heard you crying yesterday
And felt your heart-sent love
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here)
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me
He told me with a wink
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think)
I’m getting lots of hugs from God
He’s really good at that
And every time that I walk by
He gives my head a pat
Balloons will fill the streets for me
They float up through the clouds
And we have lots of clowns up here
That make us laugh out loud
There is a birthday carousel
Jeweled horses ride the wind
With music playing oh so sweet…
The magic never ends
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts, surprise!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead they light up the skies
I AM SO LONELY IN MY HEART WITHOUT YOU. / MOM YOU WERE TAKEN FROM US IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE AND I AM SURE GOD HAD BETTER PLANS FOR YOU IN HIS BEAUTIFUL LAND. I SMILE TO HEAR YOUR NAME, AND I CRY BECAUSE YOU ARE MY BABY BOY WHO HAD A BIG EFFECT ON MY LIFE FROM THE DAY YOU WERE BORN. I LOVE SIS WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL , THAT IS WHY MOM HOLDS ON. THE BOY WHO TOOK YOUR LIFE BUB , I CAN NEVER FORGET HIS COLDNESS AND NO REMORSE. ALL I EVER WANTED FROM HIM WAS AT THE LEAST,, I AM SORRY. BUT ALL I EVER GOT WAS HE FELT LIKE HE DID NO WRONG. WELL HE DID!!!! ONE DAY WE WILL ALL STAND BEFORE GOD, I AM SURE HE WILL ANSWER THEN. I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! MY LIFE HAS AND NEVER WILL BE THE SAME SINCE YOU WERE TAKEN TO REST, WHAT I WOULD'NT GIVE JUST TO HOLD YOU AND TELL YOU MOM WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU. I FELT CHEATED BECAUSE I COULDN'T MAKE IT THERE FAST ENOUGH TO PICK U UP AND SAY ... MY LAST I LOVE YOU'S, I DO ASK GOD TO GIVE ME STRENGHT EVERYDAY THAT I HAVE TO LOOK AT THIS CHILD AND KNOW WHAT HE DID.
I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE SON AND I WILL ALWAYS SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS, TILL I AM FINALLY CALLED UPON TO GET SOME REST AFTER THESE YEARS OF TORMENT.
SWEET DREAMS MY ANGEL
LOVEING YOU ALL THE WAY UP TO ARE AND BACK INTO MY HEART.
MOM
MISSING YOU!!! / Shelly Greathouse-Crisp (cousin) Hey bub, just writing to say I love you and miss you.. As your 24th birthday approaches I try to think and visualize what kind of man you would have turned out to be.. But I already know.. You would've been a GREAT MAN, a GREAT FATHER, and a GREAT HUSBAND.. I just want you to know that I will ALWAYS stand behind you and I will make sure that NO ONE in this world ever talks down about you in any way... I WON'T HAVE IT!!!! You were and always will be the greatest person I know.. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.. I am going to talk about you to everyone until the day I die... Everyone will know what an impact you had on me and my life.... I LOVE YOU ( i just can't say that enough)! well, HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY BUB!!!!
MOM FEELS YOU ALWAYS BRUSHING MY TEARS FOR COMFORT.... / MOM
My dearest loved one, here on earth,
I saw a tear fall down your face.
You didn’t see me standing there,
Nor could you feel my soft embrace.
But I was standing next to you,
I know you looked around.
You seemed to wonder what it was
You thought you heard a sound.
Yes my love, it was I,
Who came to check on you.
I saw a tear fall from your eye,
I knew you were feeling blue.
Even though you cannot see me.
Please know that I am near
I am now an angel from above
To brush away your tear.
I know each day you think of me
And many times shed a tear.
But please just close your eyes
And know that I am near.
As I have told you often,
Do not be afraid to cry.
It does relieve the pain
Knowing we had to say goodbye.
One thing is for certain,
Even though life on earth is o’er
I’m still closer to you now
Than ever I was before.
I know you still don’t understand
Why I had to leave this earth
God doesn’t have any secrets;
It’s just all planned from our birth.
Someday when you have joined me
And meet God at His Throne,
It’s then you will understand
The questions that have been unknown.
SENDING ALL MY LOVE BUB,,,,,,,,,,,,,
MOM
A VOICE OF HOPE WHEN I CALL ON THE LORD , BUB / MOM
A Voice Of Hope
From the depths of grief, I cried "Dear Lord I am hurting so." I could almost hear His voice Saying, "Yes, my child, I know."
"But this is not the end", he said There will be another day When Heaven's portals open wide And this world has passed away."
"I know you'll miss your loved one, And it's hard to understand But I know well the future, And I will hold your hand."
I felt such peace and comfort, Yet tears were flowing still I prayed Him ever close to me For His guidance, and His will
I can not say I will not cry But hope is mine through Him He knows the future I can't see For tears keep my vision dim.
But faith in Him is comfort And His promises are true The future I leave in His hands. It is God's voice I listen to.
LOVING YOU ALWAYS,,,,,,
MISSING YOU MORE!
LOVE MOM ,,,
REMIND ME GOD BECAUSE I MISS HIM SO BAD EVERYDAY, / MOM
Remind Me, God
When I am feeling lonely and Perhaps I feel despair, Let not my ailing heart forget That You hear every prayer. . .
Remind me that no matter what I do or fail to do, There still is hope for as long As I have Faith in You. . .
Let not my eyes be blinded By some folly I commit; But help me to regret my wrong And make amends for it.
Inspire me to put my fears Upon a hidden shelf, And in the future Try not to feel sorry for myself.
Give me the restful sleep I need Before another dawn, And bless me in the morning with "The Courage To Go On."
LUV YOU SON,,,,,,
MOM
HEY THERE ANGEL,,,,,,, / MOM THERE ISN'T A DAY THAT YOU ARE NOT ON MY MIND AND HASN'T BEEN SINCE GOD CALLED YOU HOME. I JUST WISH WITH ALL MY HEART THAT PEOPLE WOULD STOP SAYING YOUR NAME IN A PAST TENSE, YOU ARE NOT A PAST TENSE AND NEVER WILL BE. I JUST WANT TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND LISTEN IS ALL I ASK, WHEN I TALK ABOUT YOU ; MY SON; . IT IS SO HARD TO WANT TO TALK AND THERE IS NO ONE TO TALK TO BECAUSE ALL THEY WANT TO SAY IS ' I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DON'T LET HIM REST. WELL IT'S NOT THAT I AM NOT LETTING YOU REST ,, IT IS MY LITTLE BOY I GAVE BIRTH TO IN 1983 AND HELD WITH LOVING ARMS LIKE ANY GOOD MOTHER WOULD EVER DO FOR THEIR CHILD. I ALWAYS TELL THE ONES WHO SAY THAT TO ME BUB,,,,, WELL LOOK AT YOUR CHILDREN AND JUST TRY TO IMAGINE THEY SMILED ONE DAY AND IN THE SAME DAY TOOK THEIR LAST BREATH FROM THIS EARTH. WOULD THEY NOT EVER WANT TO TALK ABOUT THEIR JOYOUS MEMORIES ? THEY WOULD BE LYING TO THEMSEVES AND TO GOD IF THEY SAID ; NO; . ALOT OF PEOPLE SAY " HOW CAN YOU GO ON, WITHOUT GOING CRAZY?",WELL I CAN HONESTLY SAY YOU DON'T. ALL OF US MOTHERS WHO HAS LOST OUR CHILD WILL NEVER BE THE SAME FOR ANYONE HERE ON EARTH , BUT WE CHOKE BACK OUR TEARS EVERYDAY AND MOVE FORWARD FOR THOSE WHO DO LOVE US . BUBBY,, SOMEDAYS I DON'T KNOW WHETHER I AM COMING OR GOING ANYMORE , THERE AREN'T TO MANY BRIGHT LIGHTS IN THIS WORLD WITHOUT YOU. I HAVE SIS AND SHELLY AND I HOLD ON FOR DEAR LIFE TO THEM , BUT I STILL AM SO CONFUSED AND LONELY. I WILL BE HERE FOR THEM WHEN THEY CALL ON ME AS YOU KNOW ALREADY, THEY ARE MY REASON FOR LIVING AND HOLDING ON . BUB , ALL I CAN TRULY SAY IS '' GOD, I LOVE MY SON AND WANT YOU TO HOLD HIM WHILE HE SLEEPS FOR ME TO GIVE HIM COMFORT AS MOMMY WOULD" AMEN. THIS PRAYER WILL STAY WITH ME TILL I AM GONE SON AND MY LOVE WILL GO ON NO MATTER WHAT.
MISSING YOU BAD!!! MOM
SITTING HERE THINKING OF YOU TONIGHT, / MOM HEY SON,,
WELL MOM CAN'T SLEEP TONIGHT WITH YOU ON MY MIND, I MISS YOU SO BAD AND IT HURTS THAT I CAN NOT TALK WITH YOU HERE ON EARTH WHERE WE ALWAYS HAD TIME TO TALK ABOUT THINGS. NO MATTER WHAT YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE WHEN MOM NEEDED TO TALK. I COULD REALLY USE THAT RIGHT NOW SON, I AM LOST THINKING OF WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE LOOKED LIKE NOW GROWING INTO A MAN, HAVING CHILDREN AND BEING ABLE TO EXPERIENCE THE LOVE FOR A CHILD. YOU WERE CHEATED FROM LIFE BECAUSE OF ONE PERSON " CHUCK " AND I AM ONLY HUMAN WANTING HIM TO KNOW EVERYDAY HE WAKES WHAT HE HAS DONE PRAYING HE JUST REMEMBERS THAT DAY . HE HAD NO REMORSE 8 YEARS AGO BUT THEY SAY LIFE ALWAYS COMES BACK TO HOME. YOU AND SIS ARE MY LIFE AND WHAT A WONDERFUL LIFE THAT IS BECAUSE WITHOUT YOU TWO , I HAD NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYDAY WATCHING MY CHILDREN GROW AND BECOME VERY LOVING TO ALL. BUBBY, I SIT AT YOUR GRAVE WANTING TO FIND PEACE THROUGH THIS SUFFERING WITHOUT YOU BUT I KNOW THERE WILL NEVER BE PEACE FOR ME TILL I AM LAID TO REST . I WANT SO BADLY TO BE ABLE TO FEEL THE COMFORT OF OUR MASTERS HANDS TAKING AWAY THIS LONLINESS IN MY HEART, ONLY HE CAN HELP ME NOW. YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD OF SIS , SHE HAS WENT AND GOT HER STNA LICENCE AND NOW IS WORKING IN A NURSING HOME GIVING HER LOVE TO ALL THERE. I SIT AND LISTEN TO HER TALK ABOUT SOME OF THE RESIDENTS AND I LOVE IT THAT SHE CAN LOVE THEM AND HELP THEM WHEN NO ONE ELSE IS THERE, THEY NEED HER. HER BOYS REMIND ME OF YOU BECAUSE THEY HAVE BIG HEARTS LIKE YOU AND EVEN FAVOR YOU SOME IN WAYS , I KNOW YOU ARE PROBABLY LOOKING DOWN AND WATCHING OVER ALL YOU LOVED. SHELLY HAS STOOD BY YOU BUB LIKE SHE ALWAYS HAS AND SHE KNOW HAS HER OWN SON TO LOVE, SHE HAS A PLACE IN MY HEART THAT NO ONE CAN TAKE . SHE NEVER HAS LET YOU DOWN! I AM STILL WAITING FOR THAT HUG AGAIN SON AND I WILL GET IT ONE DAY. WELL BUB I HAVE TO GO , BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU !!!
GOODNIGHT ANGEL.+
HANDSOME YOUNG ANGEL! / Shari Whitehead (VISITOR) HOPING, YOUR GRIEF IS REPLACED WITH WARM, FUZZY THOUGHTS, OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL ANGEL BOY, TROY. I LOST MY SON (YANNICK) APRIL 5, 2005, AGE: 16. WE HAVE THE LOVE AND CARING ON THIS SITE, OF SOME REALLY WONDERFUL PEOPLE, WHO REALLY CARE. SOME OF US HAVE LOST OUR CHILDREN, AND THOSE WHO SEEM LIKE OUR CHILDREN. GONE, FAR TOO SOON!
TO TROY;
IT IS SAD TO WALK THE ROAD ALONE INSTEAD OF SIDE BY SIDE BUT, TO ALL COMES A MOMENT WHEN THE WAYS OF LIFE DIVIDE YOU GAVE ME YEARS OF HAPPINESS THEN CAME SORROW AND TEARS BUT YOU LEFT ME BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES I WILL TREASURE THROUGH THE YEARS
Angel Date / Judie Smart
Remembering Troy on his Angel Date / Judie Smart (Friend)
Thinking of you on your Angel Date / Diana&Pauline Of Angel Norma Starkey (Friend)
PRECIOUS TROY, / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT (ANGEL FRIEND )
THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR LOVING FAMILY ON YOUR ANGEL DAY, GOD BE WITH YOU ALL. I AM SENDING LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU ALL.
Thinking of You! / Lucinda~Gma2Angel Sheyenne Chappell Troy, Thinking of you & your perious family during this difficult time!
Beard & Chappell Family
HAPPY 4'TH OF JULY SON. / MOM
HAPPY 4'TH OF JULY BUBBY,,,,, MOM WANTS TO LET YOU KNOW YOU WERE DEFFENETLY ON OUR MINDS TONIGHT .ALWAYS REMEMBER A MOTHERS LOVE FOR HER CHILD CAN NEVER BE TOUCH BY ANYONE ON THIS EARTH AND WE WILL DEFFENED YOU TILL WE ARE IN THAT BEAUTIFUL LAND WITH YOU SON.
ALL MY KISSES BLOWN TO HEAVEN TONIGHT,,, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL.
Tributes and Condolences
WELL BUBBY MOM JUST WANTS TO SAY ,,, HAPPY THANKSGIVING . YOU WILL BE DEARLY MISSED AT THE TABLE EVERY YEAR. I SIT AND THINK,, WONDER WHO YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN WITH AND HOW MANY BEAUTIFUL MORE GRANDBABYS MOM WOULD HAVE TO LOVE IF YOU WERE ONLY HERE, MY HEART FEELS LIKE IT HAS BRICKS IN IT TONIGHT AND OF COURSE YOU KNOW HOW EASY MOM'S TEARS ARE TO FLOW . NEVER FORGET,, I WILL HAVE YOU CLOSE AS LONG AS MY HEART BEATS AND I GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 
YOU ARE MY STAR I LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYNIGHT IN THE SKY.
LUV YOU SON,,,,,,
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