Please don’t tell me you know how I feel, Unless you have lost your child too, Please don’t tell me my broken will heal, Because that is just not true, Please don’t tell me my son is in a better place, Though it is true, I want him here with me, Don’t tell me someday I’ll hear his voice, see his face, Beyond today I cannot see, Don’t tell me it is time to move on, Because I cannot, Don’t tell me to face the fact he is gone, Because denial is something I can’t stop, Don’t tell me to be thankful for the time I had, Because I wanted more, Don’t tell me when I am my old self you will be glad, I’ll never be as I was before, What you can tell me is you will be here for me, That you will listen when I talk of my child, You can share with me my precious memories, You can even cry with me for a while, And please don’t hesitate to say his name. Because it is something I long to hear, Friend please realize that I can never be the same, But if you stand by me, your friendship will be my treasure.
sally beverly - MOTHER In memory of TROY COLLINS JR.
ANYONE WHO HAS LOST SOMEONE THEY LOVE,,THIS IS SO TRUE!!!!!!!!! / Mom FOREVER CHANGED
Can you see the change in me? It may not be so obvious to you,I participate in family activities.I attend family reunions..I help plan holiday meals. You tell me your glad to see i dont cry anymore. But i do cry!When everyone has gone-when it is safe-the tears fall.I cry in privacy so my family wont worry.I cry untill i am exhausted and can finally sleep.You tell me you admire my strength and positive attitude. But i am not strong,I feel sometimes like that i have lost control.:and panic when i think about tomorrow....next week...next year.I go about my routine.I complete tasks,I drink coffee and smile. You tell me you are glad to see i am" over "the death of my loved one,But i am not" over "it, If i get over it I will be the same as before my loved one died. I will never be the same! At times i think i am beginning to heal, but the pain of loosing someone i loved so much has left a permanent scar on my heart. I visit my neighbors. You tell me that your glad to see i am holding up so well.Sometimes i want to lock my door and hide from the world.I spend time with my friends,I seem calm and collected. I smile when appropriate, You tell me it is good to see me back to my "oldself." But i will never be back to my "oldself". Death and Grief ,have touched my life...........
My Mom doesn't know I'm watching her but I'm watching her just the same. And I hear each tear fall on her face at the very mention of my name.
She says it sounds like music to her ears and can be heard over a crowd. Oh, I hear each tear fall on her face when my name is said aloud.
I watch her stumble through each day as she wishes the day would end. And I hear each tear fall on her face as she talks of me to her friends.
But there are few who truly understand. Oh this I've heard her proclaim. And I hear each tear fall on her face. Will my Mom ever be the same?
I know that her smiles light up a sky. But I don't see that smile today. Oh, but I hear each tear fall on her face. Her blue skies have turned to gray.
Oh I send to her my warmest hug with the rays of the morning sun. Then, I won't hear a tear fall on her face. For I shall erase them one by one.
Yes, my Mom doesn't know I'm watching her. But I'm watching her just the same. And if I hear a tear fall on her face I'll just softly whisper her name!
HEY THERE GOODLOOKING , HOW ABOUT JUST A SMILE. / MOM BUBBY
I WILL BE HERE WAITING TILL WE CAN MEET AGAIN SO PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON MOM EVERY MOMENT OF OUR TIME TOGETHER FROM WHEN YOU WERE BORN TILL YOU LEFT MOM WILL NEVER EVER LET ANYONE TAKE FROM ME. I HAVE SEEN THE PAIN OF SO MANY SINCE YOU LEFT THAT ARE SUFFERING JUST LIKE ME AND I ALWAYS PRAY TO GOD TO HELP THEM BECAUSE WITHOUT HIS HELP WE CAN'T MAKE IT THROUGH OUR NIGHTMARES OF LIVING WITHOUT OUR CHILDREN. HERE IS A POEM I FOUND A WHILE BACK AND HAVE BEEN HANGING ON TO IT FOR QUITE SOMETIME.......
TO ALL PARENTS
I'LL LEND YOU FOR A LITTLE TIME A CHILD OF MINE " HE SAID "FOR YOU TO LOVE THE WHILE HE LIVES AND MORN FOR WHEN HE IS DEAD.
IT MAY BE SIX OR SEVEN YEARS OR 22 OR THREE BUT WILL YOU TILL I CALL HIM BACK TAKE CARE OF HIM FOR ME?
HE"LL BRING HIS CHARMS TO GLADDEN YOU AND SHALL HIS STAY BE BRIEF. YOU"LL HAVE HIS LOVELY MEMORIES AS SOLACE FOR YOUR GRIEF.
I CANNOT PROMISE HE WILL STAY SINCE ALL FROM EARTH RETURN BUT THERE ARE LESSONS TAUGHT DOWN THERE I WANT THIS CHILD TO LEARN.I"VE SEARCHED THE WIDE WORLD OVER IN MY SEARCH FOR TEACHERS TRUE.
AND FROM THE THRONGS THAT CROWD LIFES LANES I HAVE SELECTED YOU.
NOW WILL YOU GIVE HIM ALL YOUR LOVE NOR THINK THE LABOR VAIN? NOR HATE ME WHEN I COME TO CALL TO TAKE HIM BACK AGAIN?
I FANCIED THAT I HEARD THEM SAY "DEAR LORDTHY WILL BE DONE. FOR ALL THE JOY THE CHILD SHALL BRING THE RISK OF GRIEF WE"LL RUN.
WE"LL SHELTER HIM WITH TENDERNESS WE"LL LOVE HIM WHILE WE MAY. AND FOR THE HAPPINESS WE"VE KNOWN WILL EVER GRATEFUL STAY.
BUT SHALL THE ANGELS CALL FOR HIM MUCH SOONER THAN WE PLANNED WE"LL BRAVE THE BITTER GRIEF THAT COMES AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND.
I ASK FOR GODS HELP BUBBY WHEN I AM DOWN AND BLUE HE LISTENS WITH AN OPEN HEART AND HELPS ME THROUGH.
LOVING YOU MISSING YOU ALWAYS
MOM
Weighing on me / Justin Bays (Brotha from anotha motha ) Bub your really weighing on my mind right now. Ive been just sittin back remembering. Like when we used to swim in that pool your mom and dad had out back and you were in training to be some big time wrestlerlol. Seriously even though you kept doing those crazy wrestling moves and almost drowning me along with an occasional body slam here and there those were some of my favorite memories I had with you. Like the time we tryed to swim from sun down to sun up and we were freezing our butts off and gave up at like 2 or 3 in the morning. Or just a regular old night we had in front of your house messing around on your skateboard and making fun of the Baileys just for the heck of it lol. I remember the first time I ate watermelon with you you were like here and handed me a spoon and a whole half and you had the other half like we were eating out of a bowl. We had an awesome friendship if I can even call it that we were more like brothers than anything. I miss all the little things we did togethor I even missed our so called boring days when we just sat around doing nothing except maybe a little playstation and kicking back listening to tunes and thinking and talking about girls and cars and life. Remember when Dustin was still a little guy and I came over and you were like watch this and you told Dustin to go get us a pop out of the fridge and he did you loved it. Just your reaction was funny you and I both thought that was the cats a$$ lol. All I keep telling myself is that it was destiny. I couldnt change what was going to happen even though we argued who got to ride by the door. I used to beat myself up over that all the time and still think about it and say what if. But the fact of the matter is NO ONE could have changed what was about to happen. I say it was destiny. I mean come on your parents and sister and all your cousins and even me knew how you felt about all of us. I mean how many guy friends tell each other the love one another. Remember you were like "I Love You Man" and I kinda laughed it off then you said " No seriously I Love You Man" and I said it right back to you. Thats a once in a lifetime friendship and that holds a special place in my heart. Bub was one of a kind and told you like it was straight up all the time even if the truth hurt. Thats why I love him and miss him. He was special to a lot of people and put his stamp on all of his loved ones. Love ya Bub Miss the Heck out of ya. Your Boy Justin
Hey Bub / Justin Bays (Brother from another mother ) Hey Bub I just wanted to tell you something, that I have already told you and youve seen. I had a little boy on april 22nd 2008 and named him after you, Jackson Troy Bays. I call him Bub or Bubby 90% of the time, lol. Can you believe I have a little one, crazy right. My wife was asking a bunch of questions the other day about you and I and our friendship. Asking stuff like would I have been friends with this person or that person if you were around and I told her probably not, I mean seriously I would have been running around with you all the time and you know it, we were togehtor a lot and we or at least I had so much fun with you who would want another friend. We had one of those once in a lifetime relationships, and Im thankful for that and just wish you were here. Oh yeah I started playing guitar about a year or two ago, and one song that I learned and love to play is Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd, I get kinda teary when I play that song and Im alone. I go down by our old stompin grounds every couple of weeks and remember the memories. That street is going to crap, your mom used to keep your place so nice and neat all the time, not that its horrible now but it was a lot nicer then, for sure. Alright thats all I got for now, Later on Bub, Love ya!
HAVE TO WRITE TO SAY SON---- / MOM
I MISS YOU SO BAD I ACHE AND NEED YOU TO HOLD LIKE WHEN YOU WERE HERE. NOTHING WILL EVER BE ANY BETTER FOR ME . THIS IS MY LIFE FROM HER ON OUT TILL WE MEET AGAIN SON. SIS NEEDS MOM AND I LOVE HER SWEET SMILE ALSO SO I WILL STAND BY HER SUPPORTING HER IN ANYTHING SHE ASKS. YOU ARE MY BABY AND I ACHE EVERYDAY NOT BEING ABLE TO DO FOR YOU TO AND HUG YOU.
MISSING YOU ON THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY , LIFE HAS CHANGED ME AND I WILL NEVER BE WHO I ONCE WAS EVER AGAIN.
I KNOW YOUR SMILING IN HEAVEN, MOM WILL BE WITH YOU ONE DAY.
LOVING MY BAY BOY AND MISSING YOU MORE.
MOM
AS FOR HELPING DOWN HERE SON , I NEED STRENGHTH! / MOM
I AM STANDING HERE THINKING OF YOU AND WHY I HAVE TO RUN FROM SO MANY THINGS THAT REMIND ME OF YOU AND OUR HURT OF NOT BEING TOGETHER.
I WANT TO HELP THE SICK DOWN HERE SON BUT EVRY TIME I VOLENTEER I FALL APART BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO BAD, I SEE THEIR SMILES OF JOY AND I AM SO HAPPY FOR THEM ,,,OLD AND YOUNG,,, I HAVE TO RUN AND GET AWAY BECAUSE I CAN;T HAVE THAT HOPE .
GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT MY REASON IS ,, I AM SURE HE WILL ONE DAY SHOW ME. TILL THEN I AM SO SORRY,, I JUST HURT TO BAD STILL MISSING YOU.
MOM LOVES YOU WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE AND SOME.
I HAVE MEMORIES THAT NO ONE WILL EVER TAKE FROM ME / MOM
HELLO SON,
I WISH MY FAMILY WOULD'NT JUDGE ME BECAUSE I LOVE MY CHILD AND ALWAYS WILL. IT IS SO HARD TO MAKE THEM JUST ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM AND JUST LISTEN IF I WANT TO SAY YOUR NAME EVERY HR OF EVERYDAY. YOU ARE A PART OF ME AND ALWAYS WILL BE. YES IT HURTS SON THAT I CAN'T GRIEVE WITH THEM WHEN WE LOOSE MY FAMILY, THEY DON'T KNOW HOW I STAY AWAY AND GRIEVE FOR THEM BUT YET THEY WANT ME TO BE SOMEONE I AM NOT. SO I AM JUDGED.
WELL I WILL CARRY MY TEARS IN MY HOME ALONE FOR LOVING THEM .
I WILL DO THIS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE BECAUSE I WILL NOT LET THEM TEAR ME DOWN NO MORE! YOU ARE MY CHILD AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THE DAY I LOST YOU , MY WORLD CHANGED FOREVER . ALL I WANTED WAS FOR THEM TO UNDERSTAND , I FEEL SO ALONE SON SOMETIMES AND I REALLY COULD USE YOU TO TALK TO.
I THANK GOD EVERYDAY FOR THOSE WHO DO UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN ONE DAY YOU SEE YOUR CHILDS BEAUTIFUL SMILE AND THEN IT'S GONE TO NEVER SEE AGAIN IN A HEARTBEAT.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT SON ,, I WILL CRY BEHIND MY DOORS AND SWOLLOW MY TEARS , LET THEM CRITISIZE ME AND STILL LOVE THEM . I LOVE YOU WITH MY UNDYING HEART AND IF THIS IS MY LIFE ,,,, THEN I WILL LIVE IT AND FIGHT FOR YOUR MEMORIES BECAUSE THEY CAN'T TOUCH THEM.
I MISS YOU BUB , YOU ARE LOVED SO MUCH ,, MOM LOVES HER BABIES AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE SON.
THIS PAST FEW MONTHS / MOM
BUBBY,
AT NIGHT WHEN I GO TO BED I THINK OF ALL THE THINGS YOU LOVED AND HOW I MISS YOU SO. I KNOW MOM HASN'T BEEN ON HERE FOR AWHILE BUT ,, IT SEEMS TO BE GETTING HARDER LIKE A WHIRLWIND GOING IN MY HEAD ABOUT YOU. SO MANY GOOD AND THEN OF COURSE THE BAD WHEN YOU LEFT IS COMING TO ME AND IT IS LIKE I CAN'T STOP. WELL IT IS TRUE A MOTHER WHO LOVES HER CHILD WILL NEVER STOP THINKING ABOUT THEIR GREATEST DAY'S AND SORROWS IF SHE TRULY LOVES THEM LIKE I DID YOU AS MY BABY BOY. SORROW IS NOT EVEN WHAT I HAVE HERE WITH OUT U , IT IS HELL!
MANY TIMES I WONDER WHY IT HAD TO BE THIS WAY AND WHAT DID I DO SO WRONG, BUBBY ,, NOTHING IN THIS WORLD WILL EVER STOP OR TAKE MY PAIN WITHOUT YOU.
YOU ARE A PART OF ME AND WILL LIVE IN ME TILL I CAN REST.
I CAN'T SAY OR EVER WILL BE ABLE TO TELL HOW MUCH I MISS YOU.
MY HEART SKIPS BEATS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE YOU,SO THAT MEANS IT IS ONLY HALF THERE NOW FOR SIS.
YOU AND SIS ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE MY LIFE.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND CAN'T SHOW YOU NOW. I MISS THAT PART OF MY WORLD SO BAD.
Happy Halloween / Kate Porter Christopher's Mum
THINKING OF YOU SON. / MOM
I MISS YOU ALL THE TIME, YOU ARE MY WORLD SON. BUBBY , I CAN'T SLEEP VERY MUCH AT NIGHT AND I PUSH TO CRAWL OUT OF BED EVERYDAY SINCE U BEEN GONE. I HAVE A PURPOSE HERE STILL FOR GOD AND SIS. BUT DON'T EVER THINK MOM WILL EVER LET U DOWN. I KEEP YOUR MEMORY'S AND FEEL YOU NEAR, I WILL TELL EVERYONE HOW SWEET A CHILD I HAVE ALWAY'S.
I SIT HERE AND THINK ,, WHO WOULD HAVE EVER KNOWN, / MOM
BUB,
MY MIND STAYS ON YOU CONSTANTLY AND THIS MORNING MOM'S SITTING HERE THINKING "WHO WOULD HAVE EVER KNOWN MY BEAUTIFUL SON I GAVE BIRTH TO WOULD BE WAITING FOR MOM IN HEAVEN. YES, I WOULD HAVE TO SAY I USED TO TAKE SO MUCH FOR GRANTED BECAUSE I HAD ALL I EVER WANTED TO LIVE FOR RIGHT HERE." YOU AND SIS".
BUT GOD SHOWED ME , NEVER TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED AND LOOK AT THE BUTTERFLIES WHEN THEY SURROUND YOU, THE WIND WHEN IT BLOWS TO COMFORT YOU AND MOST OF ALL LOVE LIKE THERE WILL NEVER BE A TOMMORROW AND WHEN YOU LAY DOWN AT NIGHT THANK THE LORD FOR ALL THESE LITTLE THINGS THAT HE HAS GIVEN YOU. SO MANY OUT THERE I WATCH BUBBY AND I WISH I COULD SHOW THEM THE TRUE MEANING OF LIVING EVERYDAY JUST TO SEE A SMILE FROM YOUR CHILDS FACE AND AN "I LOVE YOU THAT SINKS ALL THE WAY TO YOUR BONES " THAT IS WHAT LIVING IS FOR. I MISS YOU SO BAD SOMETIMES THAT I DON'T THINK I CAN RAISE MY HEAD SOMETIMES TO GET UP AND TRY TO GET THROUGH ANOTHER DAY, BUT I DO. THE VERY REASON I DO BUBBY IS SO I CAN TELL THESE PARENTS , TAKE TIME TO SIT WITH YOUR CHILDREN AND STOP FOR A MINUTE AND JUST LET THE BREEZE BLOW THROUGH YOU TO SEE JUST HOW MUCH LIFE MEANS. DON'T THINK BECAUSE YOU HAVE THIS OR THAT , THAT YOU HAVE IT ALL , " YOU DON'T!!! WHEN GOD TOOK YOU HOME MY LIFE TOTALLY CHANGED THAT DAY , I LIVED FOR YOU AND SIS EVERYDAY I WOULD WAKE ,NOT THINKING OF WHAT MISERY EVERYDAY I WOULD HAVE TO WAKE TO. YOU HAVE TAUGHT MOM A LESSON AND THAT IS ,,"IT IS NOT WHAT YOU HAVE ON THIS EARTH, IT IS WHO YOU HAVE !
YOU ARE NOT AND NEVER WILL BE A PAST TENSE OF MY LIFE. WHEN I SPEAK YOUR NAME YOU ARE STILL HERE WITH ME AS LONG AS I LIVE. I GAVE BIRTH TO TWO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND I WILL ALWAYS HAVE THEM HERE.
MISSING YOU AND LOVING YOU EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY HR AND EVERY WAKING MORNING.
LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH,HUGS AND KISSES !!
MOM
I CAN'T BEAR IT SOMETIMES BUBBY,,,, / MOM
SOMETIMES BUBBY I CAN'T STAND IT NOT HAVING YOU HERE AND I JUST MAKE EVERYONE AROUND ME SO UNHAPPY, BUT I NEED YOU SON! YESTERDAY I TRIED TO TAKE A SMALL NAP AND THOUGHTS OF ALL YOUR SMILING DAYS AND YOUR WARM HEART MADE ME MISS YOU SO BAD. I PRAY FOR GOD TO HELP ME TO NOT FEEL SO ALONE IN THIS WORLD, YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL , THEN WHEN U LEFT I SOMEDAYS WONDER WHY I AM HERE TO SUFFER . TRYING SO HARD EVERYDAY WHEN I WAKE TO NOT LET EVERYONE KNOW YOU ARE MISSED SOOOOOO BAD BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND ME ANYMORE. EVERY NEW PERSON I MEET I TALK ABOUT YOU CONSTANTLY LETTING THEM KNOW I DO HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SON WHO NOW LIVES IN HEAVEN AND WHAT A WONDERFUL CHILD HE WAS BUT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO SEE IF THEY WILL TALK TO ME THEY CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS UNGODLY PAIN EVERYDAY! SIS HAS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE WITH TWO BEAUTIFUL SON'S WHO ARE NATURED SO MUCH LIKE YOU. WHEN THEY SMILE AND SAY , I LOVE YOU , IT REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF YOU.
EVERYONE SAY'S BE HAPPY FOR YOU,, BUT HOW???? I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME TO HUG AND SEE THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE. I NEED SO MUCH TO BE NEXT TO YOU. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LOST SO MUCH TIME WITH YOU AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT, I PRAY SO HARD FOR GOD TO HOLD ME EVERYDAY I WAKE AND MAKE IT EVERY DAY WITHOUT YOU. ONLY GOD UNDERSTANDS MY LONLINESS FULLY, DAY AFTER DAY.
ALL EVER WANTED WAS TO RAISE MY CHILDREN AND LIVE HAPPY BUT YOU ARE NOT HERE, WHO WOULD HAVE EVER THOUGHT MY BABY BOY'S LIFE WOULD BE SO SHORT WHEN YOU WERE BORN. NOONE EVER DREAMS OF WAKING OME DAY AND IT BE THERE CHILDS LAST DAY FOR US TO LOOK FORWARD TO.
BOTTOM LINE IS """ I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TEARS FLOW FROM ME OUTSIDE AND IN EVERYDAY...
I LOOK UP AND ASK GOD"" PLEASE HELP ME TODAY BECAUSE I NEED ALL THE HELP I CAN GET! I TELL MY HEART" PLEASE HOLD ON EVERYDAY SO I CAN GET THROUGH.
PEOPLE SAY YOU HAVE AN ANGEL, WELL I GAVE BIRTH TO AN ANGEL AND NOW I HAVE TO GO TO THAT GRAVE WHERE YOU LAY. THERE IS NO CLOSURE AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT! SOME SAY I AM CRAZY AND BECAUSE I HAVE TO WAKE EVERYMORNING TAKING NERVE PILLS SO I DON'T JUST LOOSE MY MIND AND HOLD ON DAY AFTER DAY.
SOMEDAYS I HAVE TO CLOSE MY DOORS AND BE ALONE BECAUSE I AM LOST WITHOUT YOU SON.
I WILL TALK ABOUT YOU, LOVE YOU, MISS YOU EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!
FROM MOM TO MY ANGEL THAT I LOVE EVERY WAKING DAY!
MISSING YOU SO MUCH TODAY BUBBY,,,,, / MOM
I WISH YOU WERE HERE SO BAD THAT MY EVERYWAKING DAY HURTS. I KNOW SOME DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW HEAVY THE PAIN IS IN MOM'S HEART FOR YOU BUT I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A PRAYER AWAY.
SOMETIMES BUB HIDING IN MY OWN WORLD IS BETTER THAN BEING AROUND ANYONE BECAUSE I CAN'T HIDE MY PAIN OF LOOSING YOU ALL THE TIME.
I TRY SO HARD TO REMEMBER ALL OUR GOOD TIMES TOGETHER BUT BUBBY THEY HAVE TO UNDERSTAND I AM ONLY HUMAN TO WANT MY CHILD AGAIN.
MOM NEEDS TO TALK AND I KNOW HOW TO TALK TO YOU ALONE WHEN I AM SO BROKEN INSIDE , I POUR MY HEART OUT IN PRAYERS TO GOD TO HELP ME MAKE IT THROUGH.
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE A NEVER ENDING LOVE TILL THIS HEART STOPS BEATING.
MISSING YOU BAD TODAY!!!!
BUBBY,, MOM HAS SO MUCH TO SAY TO YOU. / MOM
I HAVE BEEN THINKING SO MUCH LATELY ABOUT HOW MY LIFE HAS BEEN SINCE YOU LEFT, I AM SO GLAD I HAVE GOD TO COUNT ON TO KEEP YOU SMILING SO BEAUTIFUL. WELL BUB , I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN ME AS I WAS WHEN SIS AND YOU WERE BOTH HERE. I KNOW SIS MISSES YOU SO TERRIBLY BAD BUT SHE MANAGES TO REMEMBER ALL YOUR GOOFY THINGS YOU AND HER DID TO MAKE HER SMILE. I DO KNOW SIS AND OJ , ME ,DUSTIN AND TREVER COUNT ON YOU SO MUCH TO HELP US DOWN HERE . NOW WE HAVE THE GREATEST GIFT FROM GOD COMING SOON,, " BABY - SYDNEY NICOLE DIALS"!!! I WANT GOD TO BE STANDING OVER SIS ON THE DAY SHE IS BORN SO I WILL ASK IN MY PRAYER BUT COULD YOU PUT IN A WORD FOR SIS AND HELP US OUT DOWN HERE? I DO BELIEVE YOU WILL HELP TO MAKE SURE SHE IS OK FOR MOM.
THERE ARE THOUSANDS OF ANGELS THAT GOD CAN SEND TO EASE OUR PAIN BUT I DO FEEL YOU SOMETIMES IN SO MANY LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE ME SMILE WHEN I LOOK FOR YOU AND MEMORIES, I DO THANK GOD EVERYDAY FOR THAT AND MUCH MORE HERE.
JUST LOOKING OUT MY WINDOW SOMETIMES AT THE BREEZE, OR A LITTLE BIRD, I FEEL YOU SON. MOM COULDN'T GO ON WITHOUT THAT AND GOD KNOWS THAT , IREALLY FEEL IN MY HEART THAT HE KNOWS ALL MY PAIN LIVING HERE ON EARTH.
SIS NEEDS MOM BUB, BUT NEVER FORGET MY UNDYING LOVE FOR YOU SON!!!
YOU ARE THE ANGEL WE WILL NEED FOREVER!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ,SON
WHEN YOU LEFT I WANTED TO DIE BUT MOM KEEPS PUSHING EVERYDAY FOR THOSE THAT IT TAKES YOU AND MOM TO WATCH OVER.
WHEN GOD CHOOSES TO TAKE ME HOME THAT WILL BE MY REST AND WHAT A PEACEFUL REST THAT WILL BE, THEN I WILL GET TO HOLD YOU AS MY BABY BOY AGAIN AND WE CAN LIVE FOREVER IN HEAVEN TOGETHER.
TILL THEN MY HEART WILL NEVER , EVER , EVER, STOP MISSING YOUR SMILE AND THE LOVE YOU GAVE US ALL.
BE HAPPY SON,, WHEN YOU WERE BORN THAT IS ALL I EVER WANTED FOR YOU! AND ALL I WILL EVER WANT FOREVER.
MISSING YOU SO!!!
LOVING YOU FORVER!!!
MOM
BUBBY, I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART. / MOM
HEY BUB,
WELL YOUR BEST FRIEND JUSTIN HAD A BABY BOY TODAY AND NAMED HIM --"JACKSON TROY BAYS".
HE WEIGHED JUST WHAT YOU DID WHEN YOU WERE BORN AND IS THE SAME LENGHTH AS YOU WHEN YOU WERE BORN ALSO, I KNOW GOD HAD HIS HAND IN THERE HELPING BUB.
I KNOW YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD!!!
GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW MUCH I MISS YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY!!!!!
LOVING U TILL MY HEART STOPS BEATING,,,
MOM
MERRY CHRISTMAS / Nancy Davis
Thinking of you and your family as the holidays approach.x / Diana&Pauline Of Angel Norma Starkey (Friend)
Tributes and Condolences
I MISS YOU ALL THE TIME, YOU ARE MY WORLD SON. BUBBY , I CAN'T SLEEP VERY MUCH AT NIGHT AND I PUSH TO CRAWL OUT OF BED EVERYDAY SINCE U BEEN GONE. I HAVE A PURPOSE HERE STILL FOR GOD AND SIS. BUT DON'T EVER THINK MOM WILL EVER LET U DOWN. I KEEP YOUR MEMORY'S AND FEEL YOU NEAR, I WILL TELL EVERYONE HOW SWEET A CHILD I HAVE ALWAY'S.
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