FEAR SWEPT LIKE AN AVALANCHE,AND COVERED UP MY HOPE.
AS CLOUDS OF GLOOM SURROUNDED ME SO FAST I COULDN'T COPE.
I CRIED OUT IN MY AGONY ,,,OH GOD PLEASE LET ME DIE! FOR I'M NO USE TO ANYONE ,,,, ALL I DO IS CRY!!!
THE PAIN THAT WRACKS MY BODY IS MORE THAN I CAN BEAR, NOONE UNDERSTANDS MY GRIEF AND NOONE SEEMS TO CARE.
THEN TENDERLY MY SAVIOR SPOKE,," MY CHILD YOU ARE NOT ALONE, I UNDERSTAND YOUR SUFFERING FOR PAIN I TO HAVE KNOWN."
I WILL NEVER FORSAKE YOU,,MY ARMS WILL HOLD YOU TIGHT, WHILE COMFORT I WILL GIVE YOU THOUGHOUT THE ENDLESS NIGHT.
AND WHEN YOUR DAYS OF SUFFERING ON EARTH SHALL BE NO MORE, I HAVE A HOME PREPARED FOR YOU ON HEAVEN'S SHING SHORE!
THER'LL BE NO GRIEF OR SORROW,AND NO TEARS WILL DIM YOUR EYES. WHERE YOU WILL LIVE FOREVER IN YOUR MANSION IN THE SKY'S.
AND SOMEDAY YOU WILL KNOW THE REASON FOR THE TRIALS YOU'VE GONE THROUGH. AND HOW THE'VE WORKED TOGETHER AS MY PERFECT PLAN FOR YOU.
SO KNOW I'M SIMPLY TRUSTING THAT MY LORD KNOWS WHAT IS BEST, AND I WILL LOVE AND PRAISE HIM TILL I REACH MY FINAL REST.
LOOSING YOU WAS SO DEVASTSTING BUB THIS WAS ALL I FELT.
I WILL ALWAYS LOOK TO HEAVEN AND TALK TO YOU.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN BUBBY!!!!!!!! / MOM
I LUV YA SON !!!!!!!!!!
Thinking of you / Diana&Pauline Of Angel Norma Starkey (Passer by )
Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. love Diana&Pauline xxxx
WHY ?????? / MOM
As i look up into the beautiful sky i can only ask myself one more time ----- why Of course people tell me it was your time But they don't know what it's like to pretend to be fine. To live each day with the hurt and pain From deep inside you don't know where it came They dont know how it feels to have to live Without the child who had so much to give To go on and on and never know why I can't understand no matter how hard i try I try to be patient and not to get mad But of course i'll always be sad There is such a void and emptiness inside You can't imagine how much i've cried And i know if i knew why you really had to leave You still wouldn't be here And i'd still be bereaved.
Hey bub I stopped out to see you today. I miss you so much bub. I had that tatto done yesterday so I would have it on your birthday. I think you would like it. Its a cross with a ribbon that has the day you were born and the day you left and your initials on it T.C.J. The cross is being held in the palms of christ's hands to show that you are in his hands now, which is what everyone on earth strives for. Yes I do Have to say it did hurt a little and you would probably laugh and call me a whimp. Hang in there Sally. I love you too, and miss you. If you ever need anything or just someone to talk to do not be afraid to call me I will be there for you. You hold a special place in my heart MOM!!!!!! You are the mom I never had but always wanted. I love you Sally.
Well Bub ,,, It is another birthday for you. / MOM
Hello Son,,, All my memories are flowing back into my heart of when you were first born and the sweet little face i rubbed. You were my pride and joy baby boy,now all my dreams came true. Having your sister waiting to see you and mom having her daughter and son she prayed for. September -20 - 1983 is your day. Giving birth to you was a day every mother looks forward to after carrying you for 9 months, but yet we dont stop to think. God gives us this joy and can take it as quickly as you were born. My memories will never fade son, you were mine for 15 years on this earth, your smiles and little things you did while growing will always be in mom's mind , heart and soul. I wish i could give you the ice cream cakes u always liked for your b-day,I wish i could sing happy birthday to you once again and watch u blow out your candels. And because i cant, I will bring balloons son, as always and sit beside you.
Miss You / Justin Bays (brother) Hey bub, I dont even know where to start. Let me start by saying that I've never been able to talk to people the way I talked to you. You brought the best of me out, whats new right you did that for everyone. You and I were always there for each other. You were always ready to help no matter the situation or conversation. I do no think a lot of guys could talk to each other like we did, and I miss that like you would not believe. If it weren't for you I would not be here today, and for that I owe u one. I'll try to repay you when we are reunited up there. I still visit you all the time, which you probably also already know. I still tell you things I do not tell others but its just not the same, but it will be one day. One more thing I am working on designing a tattoo to honor the memory of you. I'm gonna get it put on my back. I think u would like it. Gotta go for now but "I'LL BE BACK". Luv ya bub and always missing ya. Your Boy!!
MY FAMILY / Keith Edwards (Mothers boyfriend )
Bub, I am privliage to be a part of the greatest family in this world, They are all so precious. I know you are missed each and every day of there lifes. Keep your wings covering them each and every day as they grow. Guide them in there lifes as they live each and every day with you only in there hearts. I feel very special to be part of such a wonderful and beautiful fmaily, that is full of love. Touch there hearts Bub when they are having that bad day. GOD BLESS YOUR MOM, YOUR SISTER SABRINIA, YOUR BROTHER-N-LAW OJ, AND YOUR 2 NEPHEWS DUSTIN AND TREVER
I LOVE YOU BUB AND YOUR FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!
Keith
HELLO ANGEL ,IWOKE WITH YOU ON MY MIND AS ALWAYS / MOM BUB,
WELL SON IT IS ANOTHER DAY OF WANTING TO TALK TO YOU FOR ME, BY GOD'S GRACE I HAVE MADE IT THIS MANY YEARS. ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW I HAVE DONE IT, OTHER THAN THAT I WOULD NOT BE HERE. I MISS YOU EVERY SUNSET TO SUNDOWN AND CAN'T HARDLY SLEEP ANYMORE, I WISH EVERY DAY SINCE YOU LEFT IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME. LIFE WITHOUT YOU LEAVES A HOLE IN MY HEART THAT NO ONE CAN FILL ON THIS EARTH, PEOPLE TELL ME I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE---WELL THAT IS TRUE. I HAVEN'T KNOWN WHAT I REALLY WANT FOR QUITE SOMETIME NOW. I KNOW I SEARCH FOR SOMETHING I AM NEVER GOING TO FIND ON THIS EARTH "YOU" AND YOUR SMILE, LAUGHTER, SWEET HUGS ACTUALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I HAVE MARRIED JUST TO THINK I COULD FIND A SMALL PART OF YOU IN SOMEONE SO I COULD HANG ON MORE BUT I WAS VERY WRONG, NO ONE I KNOW NOW CAN HELP ME BUT GOD. HE CAN ONLY GIVE ME WHAT I WAS SEARCHING FOR AND THAT IS TO BE WITH MY CHILD ONCE AGAIN, THESE PAST SEVEN YEARS HAVE BEEN SO LONELY SON. BREIN KEEPS ME GOING BUBBY, I USED TO THINK ---WELL SABRINA HAS HER LIFE AND BABIES AND OJ SO SHE WOULDN'T MISS ME THAT MUCH BECAUSE THEY WOULD KEEP HER GOING WITH ALL THEIR LOVE BUT GOD KNOWS SHE DOES STILL NEED MOM TO. I KNOW GOD HAS REASON FOR EVERYTHING AND THAT IS THE ONLY REASON I CAN THINK OF FOR HIM TO LEAVE ME HERE, I WAS LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURES FROM THE TIME YOU SAT UP FOR THE FIRST TIME ALLTHE WAY TO WHEN YOU HAD GROWN INTO A LOVING MAN AND I SEE MY BABY THAT I GAVE BIRTH TO WITH A SMILE AND TEARS OF JOY. I MISS YOU JUST LIKE ANY MOTHER WHO WAITS FOR THEIR PRIDE AND JOY TO COME INTO THIS WORLD. WE DON'T STOP TO THINK HOW FAST ONE DAY OUR BABIES CAN BE TAKEN AWAY IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE, THAT IS WHY I LIVE TO CHERISH EVERY MOMENT OF MY GRANDCHILDREN AND BREIN THAT I HAVE LEFT. WELL BUB , SIS IS COUNTING ON ME TO BABYSIT THIS MORNING SO I HAVE TO GO, BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER" MOM WILL NEVER LIVE ONE DAY WITHOUT YOU EITHER" .
BLOWING KISSES TO HEAVEN FOR MY ANGEL.
LOVE YA ------ MOM
What makes a mother / MOM
What Makes a Mother I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother And I know I heard him say. A Mother has a baby This we know is true. But God, can you be a Mother When your baby's not with you? Yes, you can, He replied With confidence in His voice I give many women babies When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb But there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this, God I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared His throat And then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you What your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile With other children and say: "We go to earth to learn our lessons Of love and life and fear. My Mummy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mum Who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quickly My Mummy set me free. I miss my Mummy oh so much But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep On her pillow's where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek And whisper in her ear. "Mummy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here." So you see my dear sweet one Your children are ok Your babies are here in My home And this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with Me Until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home They'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of Right from the very start.
THIS IS WHAT BUBBY WOULD TELL ALL OF THOSE WHO LOVED HIM..... / MOM
I'm Sorry
I'M SORRY I UPSET YOU, I NEVER MEANT TO MAKE YOU CRY
THE DAY I LEFT FOR HEAVEN, FOR MY MANSION IN THE SKY
THE PARAMEDICS AND THE DOCTORS DID ALL THEY COULD THAT DAY
BECAUSE THE ANGELS HAD THEIR ORDERS-
"WE'VE COME TO TAKE YOU AWAY"!
I ASKED THEM IF THEY COULD WAIT, YOU MUST
BELIEVE I TRIED
BUT THEY WHISPERED "IT'S TIME TO GO"-THE ANGELS SOFTLY
REPLIED
THEN THEY ALL SURROUNDED ME AND WE STARTED ON OUR WAY
AND ONCE I SAW THE BEAUTY I KNEW I HAD TO STAY
I WAS ON MY WAY TO HEAVEN, IT WAS TIME FOR MY HEAVENLY
FLIGHT
THE TRIP WAS OVERWHELMING, EVERYTHING SO BEAUTIFUL &
BRIGHT
SOON MY FLIGHT WAS ENDING, WE'D REACHED OUR JOURNEY'S END
THEN I KNEW FOR CERTAIN, THAT'S WHERE ALL ETERNITY I'D SPEND
BUT NOW I AM YOUR ANGEL, I'M THERE WHEREVER YOU GO
FOR I'VE BEEN PUT IN CHARGE OF MY FAMILY & FRIENDS BELOW
THE CELEBRATING IS ENDLESS, THE REWARDS OF HEAVEN ARE GREAT
AND I'LL BE HERE WAITING WHEN YOU REACH THIS GOLDEN GATE
I'M SORRY THAT I HURT YOU, I NEVER MEANT TO MAKE YOU CRY
BUT ONE DAY SOON YOU'LL JOIN ME, IN HIS MANSION IN THE SKY
PROMISE ME YOU'LL BE READY WHEN THOSE HEAVENLY ANGELS APPEAR
AND WE'LL BE REUNITED HERE IN HEAVEN-WHERE ALL PAIN AND
SORROW DISAPPEAR
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW THE TIME OR PLACE FROM WHICH YOU'LL TAKE
THAT FLIGHT
BUT I KNOW IT IS FOR CERTAIN-IT COULD BE NEXT YEAR-NEXT WEEK-
OR IT COULD BE TONIGHT
SO I'LL BE WAITING HERE IN HEAVEN, AND THERE'S NOTHING YOU
SHOULD FEAR
WHEN GOD LOOKS DOWN AND CALLS YOU AND THOSE HEAVENLY
ANGELS APPEAR
ONE DAY IT WILL HAPPEN, HE'LL REACH DOWN FOR YOUR HAND
AND I'LL BE HERE WAITING TO WELCOME YOU TO THIS GLORIOUS
PROMISED LAND
TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS-I LOVE YOU!
THOUGH I AM WITH YOU STILL
FOR THOUGH YOU MAY NOT SEE ME, THIS PROMISE I WILL FULFILL
I'LL DO MY BEST TO GUIDE YOU, TO HELP YOU FIND YOUR WAY
And though you are gone and you’re not here with me,
the cord is still there though no one can see.
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised, I am sore,
but this cord is my lifeline as never before.
I’m thankful that God connects us this way,
a mother and child…Death can’t take it away.
Author Terri Apostolakos
mom loves u ,,,, son!!!!
Missing You Today and Always!!! / Shelly Greathouse-Crisp (Cousin) Hey bub! This is the first time I have wrote in a long time. It is so hard here without you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you.. Watch over you mom, she has a hard time.. But I'll tell you something Bub, she is one of the strongest women I know. She has done a wonderful job keeping your memory alive.. I know she and your sister hurt more than anyone could ever imagine. I just hope that they know how much I love them and I will always be here for them!! I will be coming up to see you on August 19th. I'll write again soon!! Love you Bub....
precious memories / Shirley Dean
I know the grief we all bear seems at times too much to bear. I wanted to share a story with you. We worry about our loved one being forgotten. My daughter got this idea that she wanted to contact my son Billy's friends after 38 years and tell them about the site. She talked to some Army friends and school classmates as well. All the years did not take their memories away. They remember my Billy. I was amazed that his memory was indeed living on. They love him still. I thought this was so heartwarming to know that Billy is remembered. It comforted her knowing that her son will always be remembered too. My son and my grandson will be forever young and forever remembered in the lives of others and that is the best medicine I could ever receive for my broken heart. I still grieve for Billy and for Dusty that is only only because I loved them and miss them. Sometimes love hurts and this is one of those times. Memories of Billy are still so fresh it is just like yesterday that I last saw my baby boy. God has blessed me with so many precious memories that are mine and nobody can take them. So I look at the pain that I endure as part of the loving process because without the pain I would have never loved. I want to thank each one of you who light candles for Billy. It is really hard for me to light because all this computer stuff is Greek to me, but each day I say prayers for all of you. God has never failed me yet and God has brought you to me and I thank Him daily.
Remember you loved one will be never be forgotten, how blessed.
Tributes and Condolences
THIS CANDLE WILL BURN FOR YOU SON AT OUR THANKSGIVING TABLE, WE MISS YOU ALL THE TIME.
Bub, I am privliage to be a part of the greatest family in this world, They are all so precious. I know you are missed each and every day of there lifes. Keep your wings covering them each and every day as they grow. Guide them in there lifes as they live each and every day with you only in there hearts. I feel very special to be part of such a wonderful and beautiful fmaily, that is full of love. Touch there hearts Bub when they are having that bad day. GOD BLESS YOUR MOM, YOUR SISTER SABRINIA, YOUR BROTHER-N-LAW OJ, AND YOUR 2 NEPHEWS DUSTIN AND TREVER 
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